FILLER

 How was I to know you wouldn't break my heart 

when all I've ever felt is hurt?

You draw me in with words so sweet,

Yet suddenly, I cannot breathe.

it's nothing you do, I promise it's me

But why choose me?

Is it my sweetness, my kindness, my jest

That stirs your heart and leaves it unrest?

Or was it the silence, the pull of the night,

Two souls that collided because it felt right?

Not passion, not longing, no love to confess,

Just your lights were on—and I said yes.

I have always been her placeholder

a seat-warmer for the lover right around the corner 

A feature phone, holding space for the newer model

You press my buttons, but never saved my number 

So when you'd hold my hands and pull me close,

I'd always thought, she must be close.

The more you talked of her, the more you wanted me.

For i am a linger of your memory of her.

One foot in while the other kicks her doors down.

You speak of her so fondly and I always listen,

Whispering your love for her into me

Even when you spit her name out in spite,

the floor burns of a passion so bright.

Didn't mean to rhyme, 

 I just needed to write.

 how was I to believe you loved me?

when I knew I wasn't her

How could I feel anything but replaceable,

When I was just a convenience you'd forget?

I can't change who I am, believe me, I tried

you said you were over her, it feels like you lied

I tug towards you,

As you pull into her.

and yes, I admit, I wish I was her

I wish we never met because all you do is recollect

Constantly whispering her name like a prayer to me

Eventually, I relent 

I am but a shadow

Of who your lover could be