CONFORMED

 if only I had met you when I wasn't so broken,

maybe you'd have a crack at me.

if only you knocked when the door was unlocked, 

maybe I'd have let you in.

but many have come and robbed me of my innocence, 

broken into my house and vandalized my essence,

and now as I stand here, shattered 

and you as whole as anyone has ever been,

i wonder if I'll be in a deterrence your actualization.

for if you are to fix me,

you will have to break as well.

to redesign yourself to understand me,

for i fear you are too whole for me,

too clean, to undamaged

you can not understand why I am the way I am,

why my doors are always locked and my heart sealed,

guarded by walls so tall and strong,

i fear i might be bad for you,

for to love me, you need to bend

and I fear you may break