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 Your skin felt like it was lined in polythene,

A thin coat of distrust that held me back,

From indulging and dissolving into you,

From leaning into absolute ruin, 

For I remember how much it hurts to love you,

To want no one but you who wants anyone but me.

I remember how far into the deep end I was,

Searching for meaning without you ,

Lost from trying to find you,

My heart as heavy as the circles under my eyes,

My body still numb from the moment you left,

And as you lie here in my arms,

Our fingers as intertwined as our thoughts,

My doubts hovering in your dreams,

Your tainted touch staining my skin,

And your perfume invading my air,

All I thought of was how you left,

And all I could think of was you leaving.

Because you would, you always do

And quite frankly, 

I don't want to always be the girl you almost love,

But always have to leave.

So, who would have thought that you'd come back

And I'd say no.