DELETED

 I'm emotionally online

Logged on to the idea that you're mine 

Retweeting the thought that I am ever thine

Until our algorithm was redesigned 

And our terms and conditions redefined

I am obsessive and possessive 

Stalking her Instagram and comparing our forms

Asking why to me you can't belong 

I camp on your Twitter and read your thoughts

Using a pseudo to decipher your timeline like code 

Because if your thoughts I could decode

Maybe on jealousy, my mind would not implode

I'm paranoid and madcap

Why were you on her page on that date?

Who were you out with the so late ?

Is the pink toothbrush spare?

Or was someone else there ?

Did you buy a new perfume?

Or does your hoodie reek of her fumes?

I'm tired and suffocated 

Why won't you reply to my texts?

Why won't you look at me when we have sex?

Conversations so tense always walking on eggshells 

My pattern so sloppy and my behaviour careless 

And most times I'm thinking to myself 

What did I do to make you so upset?

I misbehaved and I'm ashamed 

I'm festering into love overgrown 

A ghost of care not shown

 I wreak havoc to become your own 

But the other woman is the only name I've ever known 

In pain I cry and groan

Because once again I am all alone

So give me my sweatpants and I'll bring your hoodie

Let's be rid of each other for good 

Because I'm tired of crying while you're always lying

I take time off and squeeze you in 

Yet you can't take time off to let me in

Allow me to unfollow your heart 

Unlike the glimpse of us 

Untag you from my memories 

Unsubscribe from your lifetyle

Disconnect from the heartbreak

Deactivate this constant heartache

I'm tired of being ghosted   So let me be emotionally offline