ENVENOMED

 I was once in a toxic relationship

And I was like a moth to a flame,

 running toward the light that melts my wings and sets me on fire

Like a bird to a clear glass window,

 blinded by the illusion of clarity,

 I kept getting hurt over and over again because I refused to see clearly

I was a slave to my emotions

A mindless follower of the religion of love

But ours was more like a cult, 

As you lead me to believe that you were the best thing to ever happen to me

And with every sweet word drawn from your facets,

 I would give more and more of myself to you

You were like a snake charmer, playing your pungi,

Leading me out of my safe haven to a dark dangerous world

Like a lion tamer, 

You whipped me into the shape that you needed me to be in

Pristine and mind controlled to do what you want and what you needed

And anything less would get me punished

 and I would have to apologize constantly for being an inconvenience

So I was always apologizing for being myself

Because you didn't want me as I was, 

you wanted me adjusted

Like a Franken form of your desires

Fueled by your narcissism, you kept me as a prisoner

And even though I knew that I didn't need you,

That i was better off without you

I still stayed, over and over again, 

Even when I was tired

Even though you didn't want me

Because in my delusional exhausted mind, 

I thought that you were the best thing that's ever been mine

That you were the only one who understood me 

I was broken and only you could fix me

You were my tape and glue guy

And the idea was so ingrained in my brain 

That when I had the chance to escape

When I finally broke out of that prison

I wanted to go back

I wanted to run back and close the bars so you couldn't notice I had left

But deep down I knew that I had made the right decision

Even though everyone told me that I would forever be alone

I had finally understood my worth

And found the value within me

There and then I knew that I was free of the shackles that held me

And from then on, never again have I been a prisoner of love

Even when blinded, 

I can still tell when it's light or dark 

And then, 

I realized that the requisite of the relationship in my life,

was so as to teach me how to run when I didn't want to

But needed to